Just plain lazy

It is so easy just to do nothing. Sending out resumes, making calls --- all to be told "We are not hiring at this time." All of this work for naught.
All of this just adds to my depression. Each day runs into the next one. The past few months are just a blur. Just another day - they pass by - one after another.

How long can this go on?

And the beat goes on...

What next? Still unemployed. My car got totaled and now my stomper truck is intermittently leaking water. Mortgage past due. Not enough $$$ to go around.

Jeez, give me a break.

I have been blogging here for a year now. I thought I might use this as a way of therapy to get through life's crap slinging. But it just continues. I know there are people in much worse shape than me, but it appears that I am heading down that path.

When is the madness going to stop?

Yep still around...

Been along time since I last wrote...mainly because things have not changed...still unemployed. Not getting any responses. So I guess I will just have to see if next year has any changes in store for me.

From Post Secret (week of 6/29/07):

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Subject: year of losses
It's funny how losing everything helps you find yourself.
So I'd like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who has believed rumors, hated me, tormented me, screwed me over, and abandoned me this year. You made me who I am. And I finally love myself.                                          

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Pretty much sums up how things have been going lately. I am no where near as far along as the person who wrote the email above is. Life just keeps hitting me in the face and I go another notch down. I am looking forward to the day when I can write a passage like the one above.

It just keeps coming.

I was laid off two days ago - work force reduction - that is true, but why me?

Had a dentist appointment yesterday, almost had a root canal - doc worked on saving it - so we'll see if the pain of the procedure was worth it.

It's a new year, so let's hope that things get better and back on track.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to all and to all a goodnight.